tears

million tears have I shed………

million tears have I shed
tears of pain
tears of hope
tears of vain
tears of separation.


yes, millions have rolled by
caressing my cheeks
irrespective of seasons and reasons.

in silence I am alone
wandering in my own thoughts
diversifying yet mystifying thoughts;
wonderful yet painful.

I relinquish the fear
fear of pain
fear of hopelessness
fear of crippling agonies
fear of unwanted temptations.

But I have failed.

I relinquish the ‘fear’
that fears to be relinquished.
and in fear I continue to wallow
ceaselessly
carelessly.

I run from many things
………things that I can’t exist without
………things that I can’t think without
………things that I can’t perceive without.

I accept many things
………things that do not serve a purpose
………things that cripples me in thoughts and deeds
………things that cares not of anything.

why? why? why?
I ask….and the question remain.

and here I am……..